Challenges

           Recently, someone very near and dear to my heart told me that she loved my blog and requested that I write more. I had been thinking about a lot lately and many events have occurred in my life lately, but I just had not spent the time to write them down. I guess part of me thought, ‘does anybody really care what I have to say?’ And, it didn’t occur to me until the recently when this very sweet, kind, person said, “p.s. I love your blog!” that the people that matter do care and that’s all that matters. That person really touched my heart!

            My life is a constant roller coaster (I’m sure you can relate). One minute I am up at the top of the world, the next minute I am way down in a bottomless pit. Yet, somehow, I find the strength to climb back up to the top again; although sometimes challenging, very possible… but how? (You might ask). It’s simple, trust in God.

            I have had a challenging life full of trials and tribulations (have you?) and I can honestly say that without God I would not be who I am today, I would not be where I am today, and I would not have the strength to climb back up to the top when I feel like I am in a bottomless pit.

            I do not express a lot of my emotions to many people, maybe I should, but it’s hard. There are two people that always know what is going on in my life; God and my husband. I often put up a wall, not a trait that I am proud of, and put on a face that leads people to believe I am okay. But really, I am not always okay. I’ve learned that the only way I am going to be okay is to turn to God. And maybe God won’t provide me with a direct response or answer, but I know that some way or another he will show me why things are the way they are (Although sometimes I don’t like the answer, it’s His will and that’s all that matters).